get out of my head... and into my heart..

or i guess into my gut...the root of all things true and intuitive, for me anyway.

i think it key to stay out of thr head when concerning most matters. but, how difficult the task when women are predisposed to operate so often through the brain. my best defense? staying busy... filling the brain with other complex information. sleep. ahhh... sleep, but then those dreams will come back and bite you. hard.

im not sure what im saying here, except that something occurred to me today that maybe i should or shouldnt be concerned about and i cant tell if its (a) nonsense, because by the time i'll get an answer it will be so far in the future and how i feel now will have only been a momentary concern, (b) a strange defense mechanism kicking in for the sole purpose of being difficult or (c) valid, considering the circumstances. i may have to opt for option (a) just to make life more simple and hope i dont end up hurt in a future scenario...

confused? yeah, me, too.