Hummmmm... what's that clicking?

The title has nothing to do with anything, except for that it's a hilarious inside joke.

This is a little bit of a hodge podge of thoughts, because when my internship basically requires me to sit in front of the computer and take notes on a four-hour radio show (for now), i have a lot of computer time. And so I have three things to touch base on:

1. I checked back on an e-mail I wrote to someone six months ago, but never sent. Usually my thoughts change and I have edits, but it so perfectly summarizes how i felt, and how i still feel, and despite this, i still don't feel compelled to send it. I don't think I ever will be. It's just going to sit there... and remind me that i'm smart. and pretty.

2. slow motion really really really REALLY sucks (but, it's probably an excellent thing). This is applicable to two things in my life right now. one, i care not to discuss. the other is the twelve step process of feelings you go through to get over a terrible experience. Regarding one thing, I have just entered into anger. I wish bad feelings and experiences on someone. Then reason that what I'm wishing probably isn't far off from their current experience (and also evidence that when i wish bad things, they really aren't all that bad). Then I blow off any kind of thought I gave to the matter at all. Make sense? no? Oh... well, I won't go into the details on that, either, but just know that I'm hoping 'indifference' isn't too horribly far off, because i'd rather waste not one calorie on this than one or two in the 20 seconds I spend damning their existence.

3. I haven't heard a "your mama's so fat" joke in AGES, and i stumbled upon one this afternoon that sent me in to laughing hysterics. Warning: It's only funny if you are at all familiar with Harry Potter:

"You're Mama's So Fat, The sorting hat sorted her into the House of Pancakes."

To that, I bid you adieu to go spend some qt with a giant table of friends at a local jazz club. I hope you're laughing. I still am.