Never a happy ending

I'm dancing the delicate line between keeping quiet or throwing a little kid tantrum. Seems like such a situation doesn't deserve any energy, but it is what it is, so let's just declare the current state of things and move on, shall we?

How tired am I of being disappointed? Let down? Why don't I deserve an adult, respectable explanation to someone's change in behavior (after being impressively consistent and fabulous for months) instead of maintaining my same sami-demeanor and receiving zero response instead? I'm understanding. I'm compassionate. I throw other people's shoes on on a regular basis, but I don't take kindly to poor excuses when my feelings are concerned. I exercise grace and patience, and a very cool girl attitude most of the time, which may be why when my feelings are hurt, they're hurt big. I guess when I continually make a point to not make others feel that way, I wonder why some people in my life can't seem to reciprocate... especially when they know me better than to forget to address this kind of neglect.

I feel defeated...but, it took way too long to get my heart to open back up, so i'm going to lodge one of my cast-iron skillets in the door and make sure it doesn't shut down again. All my lovelies, you're sure helping to make it easier...