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old habits die hard. really hard.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

i've been thinking and thinking and thinking up storms. and i've been wondering why it is i've been going through such a wild wave emotions that i had since, tucked conveniently away.

well, here it all is and in one very brief moment of clarity i realized the reason i am feeling so much is because i have finally cut loose all those people who have defined the "old me" in order to move to a new standard. and let me tell you, i miss these people alllll the time. and as im sure you know, it is torture to never tell them when all you want to do is be yourself and let them know. but doing so would be insult to injury because nine out of ten times, they'll be no where to be found.

so its been a while now and since i am finally coming out of the angry stage, i'll accept some humility and acknowledge my faults and realize if they're going to improve, then i have to knock off some of these old habits. and its a bitch. im not happy about it. im mourning the loss of time and friendships and love. there have been some ill patterns in my twenties... and i feel like i have dick to show for any of them.

f#%*.

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I'm Sami Jo From Denver, CO, United States Samantha loves to travel, lose herself in a good book, practice yoga at her favorite local studio, The Yoga Mat, and connect with friends, old and new. Her love of working with creative minds extends into her personal endeavors, as well. She and her husband conduct a project called "Songs For Jake," a music collaboration channel designed with the simple mission of getting great songs to one really big music lover. Through her business, Roger Charlie, Samantha focuses on publicity and management, working closely with authors, musicians, and creatives who find value in a more personal approach through communications.
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