Conclusion

I've always admired those people that go through difficult situations and you'd never know had someone very close to them told you over too many glasses of wine and intimate conversation.

I think it's because they focus on what can be rather than what has already occurred.
And over the past few years or so, I’ve really started buying into this (it's only lately I’ve finally put it into action):

Manifest: display or show (a quality or feeling) by one's acts or appearance; demonstrate.

Destiny: the events that will necessarily happen to a particular person or thing in the future.

I've talked myself into and out of 1,000 situations that created the exact thing I had pre-determined in my head prior to the event. I have also thought people into calling me, designed a real, live individual into my life and watched everything wonderful I had created fall apart. Success comes from desire – not luck. People who really work for that deserve the hell out of it (jb, team hoyt, my mother, that dude from pursuit of happiness).

I don't mean to get all Tony Robbins on your ass – but if the above is true – then I can get anything I want by really wanting it.

Talk is cheap.
It's not what you say, it's what you do.
That's my manifesto.

And if I really believe that, then I guess, "I win."
In everything.

Somewhere along the last month or so – my needing to try and help everyone create their own providence sort of dissipated – and I've started worrying about the only person I can worry about – me.

So what out there, Spark.