Letting Go. Setting Things Down. Dropping Things That No Longer Serve. Relinquishment. Abdication. Surrender.
Around August 30th, something in me just snapped, and I decided not to go one more day with excuses, or carrying around things that weren't mine. I chose to stop holding on to past insecurities. I opted to stop building guards/walls that only keep people away, and most importantly, to let go of the things and people that don't serve me well. Not that I am some queen of the world, but I consistently care, love and support those i care about and rather than wrap myself in jealously, dis-inclusion or sadness when i don't receive 100% reciprocity, i instead chose to set all of those feelings that do not serve a purpose, and get on with it.
This has always been so hard, but for whatever reason - i'm just ready this time around. I am 100% confident in saying that.
I feel like I finally found the gene that allows me to just be myself, not apologize for it, and stop worrying so so much about how everyone i come into contact with will be affected. i still care, i just refuse to own anything that isn't my own anymore.
Most importantly, all of this means that clear out room for a lot of fantastic, new things to come into my life - and while i am already lucky enough to have a pretty fantastic life, this whole purge of junk that has been taking up space and sure cleared a lot of room over here in samiland :) watch out - manifesting powers in FULL effect.