I can do a lot, but...

I just can't save lives.

It's a hard thing when you carry compassion as one of your strong character traits, because good people will value it greatly, but some will take advantage to a scrap of your sanity.

Learning to harness the habbit of springing into "save-the-day" action has been a hard lesson for me.

And just typical of life, mine has decided to pound me in the face heavily with this issue.

Tonight was a true test - and i'm sitting here feeling indifferent- sitting on the fence between upset/worried and not giving a flying f*ck. Looks like i'm finally beating that instinct to try and save everyone's life but my own.

I know, i know. I totally sound like that girl in the Reality TV show house that's "always the victim." But fuck man... give me a break already. I'm sick of this year!

46 days and counting to a new one. Blurg...